Single released December 13, 2023 Youtube link: https://youtu.be/8D_6Btzpdvk?si=NPCrAgyGtftBYRpQ Spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/track/5sH8NrFiSFEoYuGjzmAofE?si=a56611d96cd746e8 [Verse 1] Gmaj7 A6sus4 Built a fortress trading memories for always feeling empty Bm7 Lost purpose running from my pain Gmaj7 A6sus4 I made a prison shining trauma and never found Nirvana Bm7 Sold cyanide for novacaine [Pre-Chorus] Gmaj7 A6sus4 I've learned that there is no healing in not feeling anything Bm7 I'm just a cage of skin that threw away the key Gmaj7 A6sus4 To fall apart right now that'd feel like ecstasy but Bm7 These walls weren't built to break [Chorus] Bm7 I really wish that I could cry right now Gadd9 I really wish that I could let this out D Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead A I'm too good at holding them down Bm7 I really wish that I could cry right now Gadd9 But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how D Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known A But the silence is making me drown Gmaj7 I really wish that I could cry A6sus4 Bm7 I really wish that I could cry [Verse 2] Gmaj7 A6sus4 I've had to wear a thousand faces, be fake to just replace this Bm7 Panic that my past holds tight Gmaj7 A6sus4 Now every feeling's lost it's flavor 'cause I feel so much safer Bm7 As frozen than in fight or flight [Pre-Chorus] Gmaj7 A6sus4 I've learned that I'd rather suffer, I would rather agonize Bm7 Than lose the little things just for the alibi Gmaj7 A6sus4 That taste of tender love is worth a sacrifice Bm7 I'm living not alive [Chorus] Bm7 I really wish that I could cry right now Gadd9 I really wish that I could let this out D Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead A I'm too good at holding them down Bm7 I really wish that I could cry right now Gadd9 But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how D Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known A But the silence is making me drown [Bridge] Bm7 Gadd9 My life is full of love but I'm empty D D 'Cause I've been so afraid of remembering Bm7 Gadd9 I just want to break down, I'm ready D A So let me please [Chorus] B5 I really wish that I could cry right now G5 I really wish that I could let this out (Let this out) D5 Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead A5 I'm too good at holding them down B5 I really wish that I could cry right now (Cry right now) G5 But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how (Forgotten how) D5 Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known A But the silence is making me drown N.C. I really wish that I could cry